Wednesday, January 10, 2007
two hundred eight.
crap.208 is what i weighed in today at the doctors office.
wow.
you know, the psychology of being fat is amazing. I don't feel it. I look it, and I can't fit properly into clothes, but I don't feel like I look. Therefore, I decided it was time for a change.
My unofficial start to weight watchers started today. I have had one cookie and some cheetos to splurge, but i think my pms is getting the best of me.
So my diet for today:
fasted this morning b/c of a blood test.
Lunch - oriental salad from Mc Donalds (hate mcd's, but LOVE this salad and it comes with low fat dressing) didn't eat the almonds that it came with and ate the grilled chicken on top.
Snack -yes, a cookie, and some cheetos - puke and disgusting, but omg so good!
Dinner - yet to be determined. I am thinking ham steak and eggs w/some veggie.
Anywhooo - need to tally up the totals. BBL for that info.
curly at 2:17 PM
Monday, July 03, 2006
Valuable Lesson
I have learned a valuable lesson this week - RL and online friendships don't mix.I was asked by my friend to take her pregnancy photos - I agreed and told her that she will need to tell me when she wants them done because on the pregnant woman can decide that :) But I called her once a week for the past three weeks to tell her to let me know when she wants to do something. Well......she never called. I assumed she didn't want me taking them or she didn't want them, which I was totally okay with. I didn't even mind that she might have been considering someone else to take the photos, as well, that's a persons choice.
I thought i was close to this person, or at least close enough that if she was going to publically (on a message board) take another photographer up on an offer to take photos I thought she would have at least told me first - that she didn't want to use me.
I am very hurt. I read online that she wnated her to do them, and then today she posted them. I am so sad right now. You don't ask someone to do something for you and then not contact them and go use someone else in an online forum where I can read it. I would have thought she would have just at least told me that she didn't want to use me. I know, to some this may seem petty, and i am not upset about the photography, as I think the person that did her photos a) is an amazing photographer and b) took GREAT shots of her, but I am upset that I had to find out about this online and not in person or over the phone or hell, even in an IM.
My heart is heavy. And then whilst at my parents cabin this weekend, got me thinking.....are there really that good of friends out there anymore? I know I have my faults, but can you really meet people online and have great relationships with them? I am not a 100% online person, I like the occassional phone call and outing and not just sitting online on IM all day talking with someone. This entire thing is 1/2 my fault, but I am so sad now, and when things like this happen, I just wnat to curl up in a ball and cry.
curly at 12:24 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Today's weigh in
I haven't been good at blogging my weight loss as well, my weight loss has SUCKED. I have had a really hard time this time around and I don't know why - because I am older? Because i have been through 2 pregnancies? Because I went through chemo and that has ruined my genetic code for life? Who knows, but today I lost 2.4 lbs. I can't tell you how elated I am. Although I am on week 7, and that makes me very sad that I still haven't hit my first 5 lbs, I am well on my way.curly at 8:56 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
wow. what a day.
hubtoday sucked. i swear to god my kids KNOW when hubby is out of town. E screamed all day long and threw fits, V, well, he did the same. It was truly amazing. It's like they had a meeting this morning and decided to gang up on me. I bet the conversation went something like this: 'hmm...let's make mom's life hell today - you scream when i am not, and then after we have a screaming fit, i will go pee on the floor and then hit the carpet, and then throw another fit, while i am doing that, please scream at the top of your lungs the entire time'So, my first day alone with the kiddos and it is 11:30, e just fell asleep on the couch and v is on my chest as i type, he is due for a feeding soon, soooooo...no bed for me before midnight.
and all the while today i was hoping it was thursday. but nooooooooooooooooooooooooo i have three more days until hubby comes home. I called him today almost in tears, and then again tonight when i got home, you think he could say sorry you had a bad day or hope you have a better one tomorrow? um, no. all he said was my day was long -
holy hell, all he did was travel today on a plane. that's it. it was a 2 hour flight. and he was away from home this morning beginning at 7 am. and he gets a hotel room to himself tonight. and he gets to sleep through the night. and he doesn't have to wake up until 9. the list goes on. *sigh* three more days...
curly at 10:32 PM
5.2.06
My first weigh in. Okay, I am going to be very forward on this site as well, I have to to get my ass motivated.I weighed in at 204.6 lbs. ACK. I wanted to cry. I am short and this is so overweight. Well..today at my second meeting I have lost 2.2 lbs. While that isn't a lot, it is a healthy loss.
I am very excited that there is less of me.
curly at 4:26 PM